No light in the darkness you see?"
The first two lines of the hymn, and my heart cries out, "Yes! Yes! I am troubled and weary by all the darkness that I see."
Just in the last half an hour I have been bombarded with warnings of terrorists taking down America. I am disheartened to "journalists" who are mocking marijuana being illegal, laughing at the thought that it has any real negative impact.
People I know are losing their jobs this week, businesses are closing. I saw our own Vice President touting the idea of being part of a welfare nation as something to be aspired to.
I look at my three kids, ages 20, 13 and 12 and I wonder what kind of future this world holds for them. When I was twenty my husband and I were making some questionable decisions but we were prepared for getting married, we were managing on our own. I cannot begin to imagine that for my son. Last week we offered a training level apprenticeship job and there were people with Masters degrees applying for the job because they cannot make it out in the world doing what they spent years and years educating themselves for.
And even our business is a dinosaur fighting extinction, under the duress of things like Obamacare, and competing with a nation that abuses its people that enables them to offer prices we can never compete with.
Things are a mess. Tough all over is an understatement. And if I focus on all that I see, it is hard not to sink into the darkness of discouragement and despair.
Then I think about the refrain of the hymn as it goes on...
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.
And a verse from Psalm 73 comes into my mind in an instant...
And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You.
Oh to live life in such a way that I would be so dearly focused that the darkness that surrounds would not be able to compare to the beauty of the Light that stands before me. It is no simple task, but oh it is the hope of my salvation.
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Father, Father, Father, I pray. Teach me to keep my eyes focused and fixed on You. You have promised You will keep in perfect peace the one whose mind is stayed on You. (Isaiah 26:3)
We cannot look for light in the world, the Light has made its home within, we are to be the light, to bring the Light. Christ in you, the hope of glory.
It's so easy to get caught up in the cares of this world. To think we ought to find some hope, peace or satisfaction in this life, when the reality is that this life is but a passageway to the real life we have been promised, eternal life with Christ.
Our job here is to glorify God in all... Worship and praise Him from the pit and from the mountain top. Hold to His promise and Word in both victory and defeat. We are on a mission here, not to make our home in this life, but to bring with us those who do not know of the Home in Heaven that waits for those who trust in Christ.
We are on a mission. It is a dark world, and that's why God has sent His light to lead the way.
Father forgive me for all the times I've let the darkness consume me. Help me turn my eyes upon You, so that Your light may illuminate my heart, that I may lead others to the hope, grace and forgiveness I have found in You. In Jesus' name...
Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.