I Do Not Dare

I Do Not Dare

I do not dare to dream

For I know the sadness of its death.

I have grieved before

As I watched its final breath.

I do not dare to dream

For waiting is too hard

The pain and loss of losing

Has left me worn and scarred.

‘Tis easier to lay aside

The thoughts of what could be

And simply live right where I am

And hold to what I see.

I do not dare to hope

To suffer when it’s deferred

I’d rather live right here and now

No “could be” whispers heard.

My faith I’ll rest in who God is

Not in what He might do

I’ll seek His face and not His hand

And trust what’s proven true.

I know His plans are good

That’s good enough for me

I choose not to dream about

What just may never be.

I do not dare to aspire

To accomplish any great thing

So when nothing comes to pass

Disappointment it will not bring.

I have been the dreamer

Imagined a different life

Only to fall down hard

Shredded by internal strife.

I choose to look around me

Count the blessings that are mine

It’s a happier place to live

Than in dreams I may never find.

I no longer look

To fulfill some greater plan

I do not seek to soar

I’d rather simply stand.

I’ll stand right here

And I’ll live right now

I never have to dream

Or ever wonder how.

To imagine or to dream

Is more than I can give

For to suffer under heartbreak

Is such a horrible way to live.

Contentment is my aspiration

Satisfied in the here and now

Let the future be what it will be

God will work it out somehow.

No dreams for me

I simply do not dare

Let life bring what it will

I do not want to care.

If a dream You have to give

I’ll simply give it back to You

I don’t to ever dare to dream

Of what may never come true.

Hope is heavy unmet

A burden I choose not to bear

The future is Yours Father

I’ll live in it when I’m there.

I will never again grieve

A dream into its death

For I do not dare to dream

Or give it a single breath.

Diana DePriest

© March 14, 2013

Hope deferred makes the heart sick...

Proverbs 13:12